Trust me when I say I know how you feel….

I was everything that I wanted to be, or so I thought.  I had a busy career and all the success and money that came with it. The hours were long and the expectations were high and I delivered. It was glamorous and successful and I was proud to have made it. I was a high flyer.

But, as time went on something was missing.  I never felt good enough. I started to lose confidence and belief in my abilities. I doubted myself.  This was a result of a poor self-care routine, pressures at work, fear of failure, fear of being judged and a bad money mindset.  This all created a feeling of being overwhelmed. I was slowly losing control of my life.  It became a cyclical process of work, stress, anxiety, low self-esteem, feeling a need to say yes to everything and everyone without a thought about me. 

I developed toxic habits that plagued my daily life.  No one knew and I believed that if I spoke about it that I would show weakness. I was a classic swan, calm and serene above water and paddling like crazy underwater.  I continued living the fast paced lifestyle that I thought was expected of me.